Weighted Heart On The Eve Of My Birthday
Thursday, May 26, 2011 at 12:53PM Birthdays.
They only occur once a year and usually are a joyus occassion which you celebrate with family and friends.
This year, however, I find myself on the eve of my birthday with a heavy heart - and not sure if celebrating is the correct way to proceed at times. Whilst I know that it is never good to just dweel on the things in life which put you down (otherwise youd be in a constant depressive state) I also am a realist and know that some things - no matter how much you try - affect you more than others. As the clock is close to turning midnight signifying that I have survived another rotation around the sun on this planet called earth - things just keep weighing down on me and I just keep asking “why?”. I ask this - then remember - everything is out of my control. Actually, its out of every humans control. And in this I find hope. In the fact that God, in his infinite power and wisdom, is the one driving the whole thing - bringing together everything for good. Sometimes we don’t like - from a human perspective - what that looks like. Sometimes we see what happens and look and just wonder what is going on. And yet it is not the wondering which is wrong - as it sometimes can be a mechanism to draw us closer.
I don’t know what the future holds - God does - and while these items may weigh on my heart heavily - I know the ultimatly in the end - no matter my opinion or thought on the matter - God will have his final say in what happens.
With that in mind - if you do happen to see these words - pray.
Pray for the Boyd family - as David Boyd was swimming in a river in Arkansas and swept downstream. Pray as the search and rescue teams look for him - and by God’s grace - he is brought home safely.(For those who don’t know - he used to attend Fellowship Baptist Church in Racine until he moved down to AR. He is an amazing person who was always serving and you could see (quite literally) had a heart for God - and until I hear otherwise - I believe he is still out there waiting to be rescued) -http://www.baxterbulletin.com/article/20110526/NEWS01/105260315/Search-under-way-man-missing-Buffalo-River
Pray for the Davis family from Cornerstone University. Details are few - but Ryan Davis who worked at the campus died this past week unexpectedly.
Pray for my mother - shes undergoing surgery soon to remove a mass from her colon while at the same time doctors are finding more areas which are wrong and may complicate the surgery further.
Three things - all out of human control - and relying on the strength and power of God.
Three things to pray for.
Three things to think of.
And three things to watch God do miraculous things through.
Until then -
Paul
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