I ask myself that question all the time. Why am I crazy? Why do I care? Why do I…..fill in the blank.
This past weekend was a blast. Went down to Indiana and played at Mark’s dads church. It was interesting. Meet two new people, one of them actually lives in the section. I knew who he was, but this was the first time I actually got to like talk to him a little. Now, we didnt bond and become like best buds, but its a start. Also meet one of Mark’s friends, her name is Sarah. Interesting = very yes.
Well, I was told about this little shinding the day before the semester started. And we had our first practice on the thursday(wednesday?) before the shinding. Thats neat. Then we also practiced a little on saturday night(of course we were all tired so we kinda sucked at it) and then on Sunday afternoon. I was taking a nice nap on the pews when I hear marks voice coming from the back “Paulie, I need you”–this implies immediatly computer problems. And sure enough. That was the thing that he needed. I need to seriously start allocating and setting up shop in VO for private tech support hours. Its getting a little on the ridiculous side(oh wait, isn’t life crazy?) with all these people coming up and asking for me to fix their computers(sorry becky that you don’t get as many requests….but you got the programming job offer!)
Well I was a little nervous getting ready for Sunday night, but eventually it all came together. And it definatly wasn’t us. And we were reminded of that several times that day. First my battery went completly dead, and then Mark’s battery died out. WHOO HOO. Voices died, and missed ques and capoing. It definatly was not the pretiest thing in the world at times, but hey, like they say “Make a joyful noise.” LOL.
After our first practice, and on the way down to Indiana, I was kinda bummed out. Why? Cause of a song we were playing. It had been a little while since I had heard or thought about it, and finally it came up, and not at a prime moment either. I don’t know. For some reason when we first played through that song on the practice night, thoughts/images/memories of my dad’s funeral shot through my mind. That was definalty an interesting time. And it was also something that I was not expecting either. But, unlike in my past, as soon as I realized what was happening, I sat down and analized it. It took a while, but eventually, I was able to point the finger where and why it was causing me grief. And once I did and I handled the situation, I started to feel more at peace and I started to “recover” from it. I guess I learned a lot about myself last semester, and for that I am grateful. There are a lot of things that I wish never happened. But then again, some of those things I am am glad that they did happen. If they didnt, I wouldnt have grown, and become the person that I am today. I’ll give you that there are still things being worked on by me, but you know, life is a challenge.
Its an amazing thing, performing, that is. Performing in front of an audience, always seems to bring out the best in any performer. Even when your not trying. Sunday night had a bigger and better crowd than I was expecting. It was truely a suprise to me. And you know what, it was awsome. Now, I know I made some mistakes and some miss-timings and some other errors, but you know what? Who cares? I mean, what was I really doing it for? If it was for the recognition, then that is/was the wrong motivation for it. And I pray and hope that I can honestly say that that was not the truth(that I did it for recognition.)
Well its time for reading and time for homework before classes tomorrow. So I guess its time to bid this blog adue. But before I go….
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