Archive for November, 2004
Finally Shifting over….
pdearmen| November 6, 2004 4:40 pmWell, for a while I decided that I was gonna blog on my own web site. But then I realized something. That was kinda crazy, becaue when it comes down to it I don’t have the time to organize it and all, and it would just be a waste. So why not let someone who has already written the code handel it for me instead? Eh? Unless some day I get off my lazy butt and do it myself. Then it would be all good, you know? But anyways. Today I have been at work. Yeah. First Saturday alone at work. Not that exciting. Had two phone calls–one of them was actually for the ITC. LOL. The other the library ran out of toner, so they were checking to see if we had any in stock, which we did, so it was an even exchange. Normal. Had one computer come in, but it was out in like an hour. Which I know she was glad that it was. She needs her comptuer for many things—like papers….like all college students at this time of the year. But she was happy when she got it back. Finally her wireless card is working properly. Just some stuipid dell settings which changed how the card worked and all. Oh well.
The turkey shoot website is coming along just nicely. Gotta just debug some more php for the site and it should be ready to go live at any time. Unfortuantly it looks like no one is signing up. Which is a bummer because it might not be as popular as they were hoping. They were hoping to close registration by the 5th, but that doesnt look like its going to happen, considering today is the 6th. 9 more days till the site goes live! WHOOO HOOO. That means some late night php binge coding sessions for me.
Yeah, so next friday is the 12th. That makes it one month. Man, they say time goes by when your having fun. I think it also flies when you are stressed, tired, and busy beyond degree that it makes it hard to have any sort of relationship. You know what I mean? Well I got some nice plans in store for Friday. Can’t say what they are though, cause that wouldn’t be fair for someone. She needs to be surpised. HAHA. Michelle will be shocked, for sure. Yeah, I can’t believe how lucky I am. Michelle is awsome. Right now I wish she wasn’t having migranes or that there was more that I could do for her for them,but at times when someone knows you care, that is the most important and powerful thing in the world for them. You know, I have never felt like this for someone before, and I hope that it only continues on. Well work is almost done, so I guess I better log off the computer before I stay here for another half hour just typing and staying over.
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Something Big…
pdearmen| 4:38 pmDon’t you love it when people tell you stuff, sometimes stuff you don’t wanna hear, or don’t wanna believe? Ever since I have been a freshmen in high school people have repeatedly told me there is something unique/special/whatever about me and that my future holds a great future and that I will do something big, and even last year when I was at the THRIVE retreat one of the women there propisied(sp) that I was gonna be one calling out and declaring the name in the Lord like one of the biblical charecters from the OT. All of that, and yet…….why do I feel like I hate this? There is a part of me that is excited to see what my future holds…..but at the same time……..I don’t know. Cause I don’t know what is in hold for me, and that is probably the scariest part of it. I mean, I kinda want to know where my future is going, but I have to stay at the fact that I don’t know, and that is frustrating. Also, I would like to know what people see in me. I mean, it kinda freaks me out daily when all I have been hearing for the past eight years is that I am going to do something special in my life, that there is something “special” about me, that God has something big planned to do through me, etc… I mean, even back in my high school days when I did stuff that I truely regret now, even deep down in my sin then, people were still going that there was something special about me and that I was going to do something big in the future. They could never put their finger on it, they said, but they kept going on about how I was different, which even to this day is still frustrating. How can one not get freaked out about that? Its not like its something that I can just easily forget,you know? Now, this isn’t to pump me up and all. I don’t know, I guess for some reason last night and today this thought has been going through my mind more than ever. Why? Well…..there are some reasons why. I am sitting at the crossroads of some things, and part of me wants to say that this is the beginning of me doing something that has been told that I will do ever since I was little, but at the same time I keep saying to myself it was just a bunch of hoopla. That there really was nothing meant by anyone there, that they were just trying to be…..nice? I don’t know, like I said, I don’t know. What I do know though is that that really does not matter. I mean, it does matter, but it also does not matter to. You know what I mean? I don’t know what the future holds, God does. I guess I just have to rely and wait on him. And if it is something big………..then even that would be small in the eyes of God. Crazyness is my life at times, and I love it.
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Used to be a xangan…..
pdearmen| November 4, 2004 10:37 pmBut I decided that this provided a more stable and more reliable means of control of certain variables. I am in the process of moving most of my old xanga postings over to here, but only the ones that I deem as most important. Maybe I will do that tonight?
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And after all, life is fun…..
pdearmen| 10:36 pmSo I am sitting here in the corum, just chillin. Had a meeting for work this morning, and it was just pretty releaxed and cool, got to meet the rest of the people that I will be working with. Gena is cool, I already knew here. As did I know Becky and Justin, both of them are sweet as well. Justin is just a riot at times, he has an interesting perspective on life, of course him being a drummer and all, that is what normally happens. Speaking of drummers, last night rocked. Evensong went off pretty well, and trust me it was not because we were experienced or anything, and its all becuase of God that we were able to do anything last night. There were a host of technical difficulties. Like, my amp shooting out too much sound and in order to direct inject into the sound system I had to have my amp produce almost no sound at all. That made it not only difficult on me, because I could barely hear myself(having to rely on the sound coming from the main system than my own amp to tell me how on I was) but also on our drummer Andy. Man is he good. Guy has got some serious talent, I will tell you that much. Even though I was sucking it up last night, me and Andy were in sync. I guess becuase I have played with different drummers in my time of playing bass. I just kept on looking over at him, our eyes locking and syncing up what we were thinking, its a musician thing I guess. As long as we did that once in a while, we were ok, because we knew where to go next, and what we needed to do as far as for stoping and entering and crashes and what not. Its pretty sweet. It’s taken me a while to get in sync with him, but I think we are good now. This will make the recording of the cd even more solid and tight, which I think we are achieving more and more each and every week. I still miss playing with Jim Ray, though having him on auxilary percussion, definatly is a help, because his drumming personality definatly comes out and it helps me and Andy to stay in sync with one another because he makes it easier for us to do a build on a song rather than just a flat out solid loud entrance(which is sitll fun once in a great while ) Like I said earlier, I can’t wait till we record the live cds because it will definatly be a sweet time because as a group we are jellin. I’m even starting to adapt and anticipate(sometimes, this isn’t a science here) what Alan will do next, which gives me a little more flexability.
I officially start work on Wednesday, and get to have about 12 hours a week, which is pretty sweet. A little extra spending money(*cough* credit card payoffs *cough*) but it will be good, any little bit that I can use. I can’t wait. I basically work from 1 till 5 every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. That means that I won’t be bored as much anymore on those days, and though I won’t get as much homework done as I used to on those days………your right, I lied when I said I did homework during those times!
Anyways, I finally got a whole line of “prepry” cloths now thanks to Angel. Its not so much that I now desire to be preppy(all that I am not) but that I need the cloths for work, since its all has collars and all, but hey the cloths look nice and fit nice and were all ten bucks or less, so I can’t complain now can I?
Class was cancelled today. My intermediate accounting class with Riter was unexpectidly called off. When I saw the sign I was rejoicing, but then someone was saying that it was probably his mother and that she was not doing well last week and that she might have died or she might be really really ill. Do I feel like the worst jerk ever. Here I was just rejoicing that class was cancelled, and come to find out his mother might be dying or dead. I feel like a jerk. Anyways, if you have time, remember to pray for John Ritter and his family, cause I don’t know what is going on yet, but will post back as soon as I find out what happened. As a professor and person he is sweet. So yeah, pray for him, because we always need to lift up our bros and sisters in prayer continually and on a daily basis.
Well Theology 1 class is just a few mins away, so I think I should probably be going soon……..but I don’t want to.
Listening to: 12 Stones Potters field
Mood: contemplative, happy
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Well I am avid PSO fan, and as of such when I found this I was happy. Here is a little of the intro, and before people get all uptight, I have permission to post it here. So without further ado(maybe I’ll post more later….) “Maybe she was right.” A white blur hailed down from the sky, barely missing the tattered armor which barely hung to the tired ranger’s frame. “This armor, has been a life saver, but I don’t know how much longer it will last.” Barely audiable, the words betrayed their master to the enemy at hand of the direction the ranger had run to dodge the last attack. “Yeah, she was right, but no time for that now. I’ll tell her I was wrong next time I see her.” A smile broke across the ranger’s face as he dodged yet another bolt of lightening aimed at his body. While running from location to location looking for prime opportunities to shoot his opponent, he imagined in his head the reaction of his friend when he would actually admit that he was wrong about something. The shock that would seize her body, hearing for the first time in her life that he was wrong, something that she herself probably did not think would ever happen in her lifetime. “Now, must concentrate on staying alive, otherwise I won’t be able to tell her I was wrong.” The smile quickly faded from his face as he saw a blade aiming for his head, a change in tactics by his foe which took the ranger completely off guard. Immediately, he was snapped back to the task at hand. An expression of shock came over him as he quickly tried to get out of the way of the oncoming blade. He managed to move out of the way of the full brunt of the force of the foul beast, but the edge of the beasts blade got him, and sliced a small gash on his bicep, exposing some of the muscle of his arm to the air. “That idiot is gonna get me if I don’t be careful. I’ve come too far to fail now. I can’t fail, now that I am so close to my goal, so close to claiming my reward.” The foul beast hovered before him, almost seeming to smile, like he had just destroyed some helpless town. Thoughts of confusion flashed through the ranger’s head. “What the heck, he missed me. Why is he grinning at me?” His mind was racing at all the possible reasons that this beast of evil was smiling at him. All of a sudden he felt a strange tingling coming from his skin as well as a sudden charge of energy flowing through his body which seemed to instantaneously drain all of his strength. The pain sent a jolt though his body, as he tensed up, his eyes bulging from the sensation he was feeling deep inside of him. His mind was once again racing back to the deepest part of his memory. The description seemed so familiar, not like something that he himself had experienced, but like something that he had read before. It was so familiar to him, but yet at the same time something that was hard to remember the exact source of the memory. Then he remembered. “Oh shoot. Heacleath Flowen, this is how he got infected. These are the symptoms that Flown described in his journals.” Looking down at his arm, he could see the infection already starting to grow, slowly starting to take over his arm. There was something different though about this infection than the one that claimed the life of Flowen. This was growing too fast, spreading too much in a short amount of time. According to the medical records which had been reviewed and the journals which Pioneer 2 and the research team in the Seabed research utility found, it took weeks for the infection to completely spread through out all of Flowen’s body. At the rate this infection was spreading, it wouldn’t be long now before he was completely taken over. He already knew what the end result would be. He would loose his mind and became a beast, like Flown had. Falling to his knees in front of the beast a moan of pain and agony escaped his now shivering body. He was shivering not from the cold, but from the heat and from the tearing of his soul from inside his body. The infection was now spreading rapidly through his body, draining all his strength and corrupting his not only his body but his mind as well. Leaning over, his arm resting on his rifle which had served him faithfully over the years, he saw his faithful friend hovering over his shoulder. “It’s too late buddy, but don’t worry about me, I’ll be ok.” The ranger managed to force a grin on his face while looking at his long time and faithful friend. The grin was full of pain, as he felt the evil inside of him, taking over his entire body. His friend didn’t seem convinced by the rangers false front he was trying to put on. Quickly, and without consent from his master, the mag plowed himself into his masters arm, fusing for a quick second with his masters muscle that had been exposed by the wound. The ranger was confused as he saw the mag start to dive toward his arm, but soon learned of what the mag was doing. The mag, his friend for well over two years, had plowed itself into the rangers arm and was absorbing all the dark energy that was emanating from the wound and infecting the ranger’s body directly into it’s own core, sacrificing itself for that of its master and friend. The transfer sent a shock through the ranger’s body, as the evil energy was purged from his body just as rapidly as it had infected him. “What are you doing?” he yelled. But it was too late. The mag fell down at the rangers feet, black from the horrible death it had just suffered through and hard as stone, as was evidenced by the loud thump produced when the mag hit the ground. The energy had been too much for it to absorb. This was not like the poison of the lilies, this was pure evil in its most concentrated form. Slowly the mag started to disintegrate right before his eyes, leaving behind streams of black energy as the excess energy dissipated into the surrounding air. A tear escaped from the rangers eyes, traveling slowly down the ranger’s face though the layers of dirt that had formed on his face from the many days traveling through the ruins of the ancient spaceship deep beneath the planets crust.. “You are going to pay!” was all he could mutter. Quietly at first, but then, as he repeated it under his breath it became louder and louder with each repetition, until he was screaming it at the top of his lungs at the beast that was hovering before him, a dark haze surrounding the beast that had just killed the ranger’s friend. Covered in the darkness of its own evil, the beast hovered in front of the ranger, emanating an aura of pure concentrated evil. Even the slight touch from the creature was devastating to any living organism, and even inorganic materials were not safe from the evil that radiated from the beast. The ranger’s armor showed it. The once brilliant armor that had been able to light up a darkened room from the photons embedded in it was now barely whole. Falling apart at the seams, the photons have almost completely left the armor due to the damage and the dark auras of the enemies which the ranger had come in contact with recently. Normally, the armor would have been retired at this point by most other hunters as its ability to protect had been seriously compromised, but he was stubborn. To everyone else, he said that he kept the armor since it was given to him by his best friend, but only to himself would he admit that the reason he didn’t acquire new armor was because he didn’t want to change anything, even if the quality of the other item was better. It was not in his best interest at any time to change armor, especially if he had to pay for it, but he knew that this would be the armor’s last battle, and whether it cost money or not, he would require some new armor to protect him after this battle was over. But for now, it was all the cunning ranger had. He had to make it last this one last time, otherwise his life was over. Leaning on his trusted gun, the ranger slowly arose to his feet. Staggering back and forth, the ranger extended his arm weakly, releasing a barrage of glittery particles around him. The wounds on his body closed up instantly, as he felt a surge of energy flowing through his body, restoring his lost strength. Normally, the Resta technique only closed wounds on the casters and their allies bodies, but this modified version of Resta was pure magic, as was taught to the young ranger a few years before by a strange visitor which had revealed a great deal to him. “You look surprised you jerk. What, you didn’t know Rangers could learn magic did you? You thought I should only have techniques at my disposal? Your about to learn what else I can do.” The monster hovered a few meters back, but continued to stare down his adversary, analyzing the situation it was now in. It had seen this magic before. The previous caster of this technique of magic was the person who had sealed him away in his prison. This caused a flare or anger to rise up in the beast. Confused over why the monster was not running for the hills, the ranger shouldered his rifle, aiming for what he had been told were the critical spots on the beast. Just as he was to pull the trigger, the beast motioned his arm, and released a fast moving purple ball of energy from his mouth. The ranger had no time to react as the ball instantly hit him, throwing him to the ground, his gun landing many feet out of reach of the fallen ranger. The ranger’s eyes slowly started to close, as he rapidly lost consciousness. “Nina, I’m sorry.” He gasped. Slowly his eyes started rolling back in his head as his head tilted to the side. “I’m sorry Nina” the last bit of consciousness had managed to whisper in his mind.
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Theology….
pdearmen| 10:35 pmTheology…
Theology test tomorrow. Makes me want to cry. On a different note though I want to laugh because I love it so much. The life of being crazy, what a fun time! On another note, I get to play ROOK tomorrow. So pumped? Yes, you can say that. Time to replace Eucher with Rook, and have Rook number one like it should be.
Theology Part 2
Just thought I would write a little update to the previous post. I got an 83% on the test. Not the highest, but still non the less I am happy with it. The highest was a 93%, and the lowest 49% Guess studyin does really pay off…
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So I am just sitting here….
pdearmen| 10:35 pm0110100001101001
So I finally got some free time today where I just get to chill and relax a little. Actually, I am kinda nervous, becuase soon I have to report for my first day of work. Whoo Hoo. Actually I am more than excited about that. Its been my dream to work for tech support for a while, and now that I got the job I am stoked. Ah, speaking of tech support, Becky just walked in. Good old Becky. I pick on her a little too much at times, only because she makes it easy. Heck, I make it easy to throw things back at me but no one ever takes full opportunity of it. Maybe I should cut down on it……nah….why would I? J/K. Anyways. Today I start with my “training” on how to work in IS. Basically its how to do all the procedures right and all, not so much how to fix things. The procedures and all though are critical for an effective run of tech support. Nothing much has occured today. Just two classes. Got up later than I wanted to this morning, but since my roommate leaves at like 8 in the morning, it didnt matter thatI let my alarm ring forever and a day. LOL. I know I used to drive Ben crazy with that. Just at times I can’t get up without a reminder for like a whole hour or so. And then once the hour is done I am finally persuaded enough to get up. Hope I aint like that when I am older and have a wife(if I ever get married that is)Well I should probably be takin off as I got work in a few mins, but I will update this later….
LATER:
Work was pretty good today. It wasn’t really intense, as it shouldn’t be the first day. It was more of a “Shadow Andjre and learn this” sort of day. Which was pretty sweet still because it allowed for me to learn some new stuff. My work partner for this training schedule is named Mike. I don’t know his last name yet, but he seems to be a pretty cool guy. He’s a freshmen, but I won’t hold that against him. Why should I? He is at least trying and he seems like he will do good in tech support. He learns fast. Yeah, he is definatly gonna be an asset. My next day of work is Friday. That should be pretty sweet. Well things are getting hectic and I need to dry out a little bit before my next class, so I will catch ya all later I guess
Bye for now.
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Old Testament History and Theology
pdearmen| 10:34 pmSo there are somet things which I truely love, and some things which I truley hate. One of the former being that I absolutly love learnign theology and all, and one of the later being that I absolutly hate tests on theology. Why do test always make soemthing that is enjoyable all of a sudden seem like the biggest task in the world? Its annoying is what it is.Anyways. So today will be an interesting day as I got a lot to do and almost no time left to do it. I have two tests tomorrow, one of them being a blue book test. For those of you who don’t know what a blue book test is(yeah right, like how could you not if you are in college….) it is a book and a tst of full essays. Its annoying to say the least. SO that is tomrrow as well as all my accounting homework today.UPDATE:Today, Dr. Adams wanted to go through ALL of Leviticus and Numbers. He said 50 mins to Leviticus and then the rest ot Numbers as well as a presentation by a group. Well needless to say, no Numbers, and no presentation and barely finished Leviticus in the 2.5 hours we had the class. Man, is my brain dead!
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